raining. . .raining. .

i love rain very much. .

hujan itu, ,
indah.
cantik.
menenangkan.
romantis.
dan penuh kenangan.


look at that umbrella. aww, its very cute. . i want one like that. . ^^

Teardrops on My Guitar

this is a lyric from a song which in the top of my playlist.

Teardrops on My Guitar by Taylor Swift

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I need down everything that we should be

I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without
Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's just dam funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me

He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see

this song tells about a girl who got a crush with her bestbudd.
but, he never know bout she's feel deep inside her heart.
and he had a girlfriend and always talked bout her with his bestfriend.

it's kind of tragic story isn't it?
it's kind of cliche that there's no friendship between girl and boy.
but,its very real.
it will be very hurt and irritating if you hear and see your 'prince' with his couple. .
i never imagine how i could handle that feel.
i wish i hadn't do that exeperience. .

farewell party. .

huh.
beberapa hari ini mood gw jelek banget.
walaupun gw dengan susah payah buat gag mencak" sama setiap orang yg gw temuin.
alhamdulillah bisa gw jalanin dengan lancar.
tapi, itu semua berawal dari gw n 'dy'.

'dy' itu orang yang lumayan berarti buat gw.
jadi, setidaknyah walaupun semua berbeda tapi kita bisa tetep temenan.
tapi, ternyata. . .
when u love someone so much, ur feeling can be contrary n u'll be hate him so much.
that what's i feel.
actually, i dont want to feel that way.
bcoz it's hurt u know?
but, i realize ma be it is the better way for me, for him n for the other. . .

then, he asked me to gave back something.
thing that he had given to me.
i can give it back easily, but in my deepest heart if i give it back, its same with i say good bye to him forever.
and the farewell party begin earlier than my expectation.
i'm not ready enough to face 'the party'. . .
huff.
all that thing make me confused..

just believe ur heart. . .

udah hampir 12 tahun lebih sekolah.
dan bergaul tentunyah.
punya temen" yang beda" tiap masuk ke sekolah yang berbeda.
dapet yang egois.
jutek [baca: gw sendiri].
caper.
humoris.
males.
keibuan.
lemodd.
cerdass.
banyak pokoknyah.

dan masing" bikin pengaruh yang berbeda buat kita [baca: gw].
tapi, gw fun ajah.
karena selama ini alhamdulillah gw selalu dapet temen" yang baik.
sehingga ngasih pengaruh baik juga buat gw.

temen" gw d SMA.
sebenernyah mereka kebanyakan 1 SMP ma gw.
tapi, pas disatuin d SMA.
baru deh gw deket dan ngerasa punya keluarga kedua d sekolah.
temen" gw d SMA juga beragam.
gag semuanyah punya hubungan mulus dg gw.
tapi, sebisa mungkin gw ngehindarin konflik.
karena gimanapun keadaanyah, mereka temen aka saudara gw.
harus gw hargai kelebihan dan kekurangan mereka.
toh, gw sendiri gag sesempurna malaikat.

hanya ajah,
gw tetep punya 1 pendirian bahwa gimanapun temen berpengaruh buat gw,
tapi tetep gw harus punya keputusan buat masa depan gw yang BENAR-BENAR ada di tangan gw. . .
entah mereka suka atau tidak [baca: temen" gw].
karena pada akhirnyah yang harus jalanin hidup itu gw sendiri.
gag mungkin bareng" ma mereka terus khan??
jadi,
be sure with ur choice. . .
b'coz, it is the voice of ur heart.
and it can't be wrong. . .

nona hujan is frustated. . . grrr

ujian semakin dekat.
kelulusan udah ada d depan mata [amien].
maka dari itu gw sebagai siswa kelas mulai kalang kabut cari info tes PTS dan PTN.
dan awal bulan ini dimulai dengan tes trisakti.

sebenernyah pengen sih.
tapi, jujur gag ada jurusan yang gw pingin.
paling adanya hukum.
jadi akhirnyah gw gag ikut.
dan yang ikut adalah temen sebangku gw, Hala.
dy ikut tes FK trisakti.
[wish she can do the test better]

sebenernyah perasaan gw liat temen gw yang masa depannyah di depan mata, adalh frustated.
gila.
cepet bgt.
gw juga frustated karena PTS yang gw pingin belum buka pendaftaran.
[gosh, i hate waiting]
tapi apa mau dikata, gw cuma bisa sabar dan nunggu info terbaru keluar.
[hope, it will be as soon as possible].

gw cuma pingin masa depan gw jelas.
setidaknyah dengan ikut tes PTS, gw udah mulai ambil langkah buat maju ke depan.
walaupun gw tetep pingin masuk PTN.
malah kalau bisa gw pingin study abroad. . .

tapi, gw percaya apapun yang akan terjadi nanti.
gw kuliah dimana dan jurusan apa.
gw yakin itu yang terbaik yang diputuskan Allah buat gw.
dan gw harus jalanin itu sebaik"nyah. . .